Even Better Things Don’t Feel Like You.

 It’s only April,

except it’s not only April.


I don’t know how long 

I’d keep mourning

the idea of what we could have been.


I’ve not been the same

since last summer.


Nothing has felt the same.

“Same,” I mean,

nothing has felt like you.


Even better things,

don’t feel like you,

like us.


I don’t know how many seasons 

I’d keep packing 

for a journey we’d never take. 


How many mornings 

I’d smile, 

because I imagined the version of you 

that would have been perfect for me.


I’ve written you into poems,

because my poems are pieces of me,

makes me feel like you’re still a part of me.


It’s funny, we never stood a chance.

Still,

 I have all these “what ifs”.


They say you were not good for me.

To be fair, I agree.


But beneath everything,

I always wanted it to be you.


Maybe it could still be you.

Maybe it would just take another universe,

and a timeline kinder than this one.


~Hadiqah.O


I wrote this poem on the 14th of April.

Right now, I’m going through a bit of writer’s block, so I thought I’d share some of my older writings too,at least it means I’m still doing something. And honestly, I think they’re pretty cool too.


Someone told me recently they couldn’t wait for me to start writing about romance. The truth is, the very first poem I ever wrote was about love. I’m not sure if it was romance exactly, but it was definitely about love.(probably about my mom)And since I’m a hopeless romantic, it’s not surprising that I find myself writing about it again and again.


I started writing because I was fascinated by the words of some of my favorite modern Arab poets—how they could love and hurt so deeply that their pain turned into masterpieces. 

I don’t always know why, but I’ve been hesitant to post my intense writings. Maybe it’s because I feel people might assume everything I write is something I’ve lived through. I’m not sure if I want to confirm that… or deny it. 😂

(Though sometimes, I simply write in the spirit of the poets I admire.)


Anyway,here’s to posting more of what I love , and to growing into the kind of writer I’ve always dreamed of becoming. 

Also because somewhere out there, someone might need to read them as much as I needed to write them.

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